Little by little, I will get there. After my post last night, I did walk the dog and made a conscious choice NOT to have a drink when I got home (it was hard). I also had olives, a mini babybel light, a spoonful of peanut butter and a dinner that was... 2 slices of Papa Murphy's Mediterranean Chicken deLite pizza and a salad. I compromised. After dinner, I had a slice of bread with a pat of butter and a tea biscuit, I'm happy I only had ONE tea biscuit. That was hard, too. Baby steps. I am happy that I did not totally give up on myself and my goals yesterday. I sort of found a gray area to hang out in. I even said to DH that "I don't want to eat or drink these bad feelings away."
I don't think it would be fair (to myself) not to mention that I am having a very hard time with work these days. I am really wrestling with the kind of person I am becoming by staying where I am, and yesterday I attended a "training" session which magnified my situation. I have asked to speak with my boss' boss about executive coaching, she and I are going to lunch tomorrow.
So, here's today:
B: egg, 2 Boulder Breakfast Sausage links, 1/2 pear, coffee with 1% milk
L: grilled shrimp, grilled scallops, broccoli
S: dark chocolate ginger square
D: 2 slices Papa Murphy's Mediterranean DeLite Pizza, salad with romaine, spinach, tomatoes, red pepper
E: weights workout after work
S: tea biscuit
Daily Motivation: I'm shifting my focus to building my new body, rather than getting rid of the old one!
Wednesday, April 20, 2016
Tuesday, April 19, 2016
Not coming here is not OK, and April 19
I didn't post yesterday. I didn't eat well, either. Didn't post today, also didn't eat well. I see a pattern. I have to come here to plan if I'm going to be successful. I need to make deliberate decisions and then follow through on them. I didn't want to come here at 5:15 in the afternoon because today has been, well, not the best in terms of what I need to be doing to get to my goal. However, just because I'm not perfect doesn't mean I should throw in the towel now, does it? So when I'm slipping and when I don't want to come here and face it, that's a flashing warning that I need to come here and post. So, here goes.
B: egg, homemade waffle (1), apples, 1 tsp maple syrup, coffee with 1% milk
L: ground beef taco meat, chicken, 1 oz. cheddar cheese, 1 TBSP sour cream, 1 TBSP guacamole, 4 tortilla chips, 1/3 cup refried beans, lettuce and tomatoes. 1 8" flour tortilla.
S: a peanut butter cookie. and a bite of a brownie. And a handful of animal cookies.
D: I don't know yet. I really don't. Honestly right now, I just want to go to dinner and have someone else cook it, serve me, and clean up afterward. Could do salmon burger, salad and potatoes. Don't even need the potatoes. Maybe a rotisserie chicken, roasted veggies and a salad? <- This sounds pretty awesome. So does the salmon burger, to be honest!
E: tired. should spin, too tired to do it. Maybe an early night is what I need. Will walk the doggy love.
S: tea and a tea biscuit.
B: egg, homemade waffle (1), apples, 1 tsp maple syrup, coffee with 1% milk
L: ground beef taco meat, chicken, 1 oz. cheddar cheese, 1 TBSP sour cream, 1 TBSP guacamole, 4 tortilla chips, 1/3 cup refried beans, lettuce and tomatoes. 1 8" flour tortilla.
S: a peanut butter cookie. and a bite of a brownie. And a handful of animal cookies.
D: I don't know yet. I really don't. Honestly right now, I just want to go to dinner and have someone else cook it, serve me, and clean up afterward. Could do salmon burger, salad and potatoes. Don't even need the potatoes. Maybe a rotisserie chicken, roasted veggies and a salad? <- This sounds pretty awesome. So does the salmon burger, to be honest!
E: tired. should spin, too tired to do it. Maybe an early night is what I need. Will walk the doggy love.
S: tea and a tea biscuit.
Sunday, April 17, 2016
April 17, Snow Day #2
B: 3 homemade waffles with 2TBSP maple syrup, a granny smith apple, 2 Boulder Breakfast Sausage links.
L: 2 slices leftover pizza from Virgilios, 1 stalk of celery, 1 whisky cocktail
D: chix breast, roasted zucchini, tomato sauce, maybe a salad
S: beer, maybe? And probably a cookie? *I just scrolled down to my April 14 post with those pics of that girl's wonderful transformation, and I will skip the cookie today. But not the beer, if DH wants to go get one!!
E: Again, none. Snow day. Trip planning, folding laundry, petting the doggy love... Methinks it would be in my best interest to get some exercise in... ? Walk the doggy in the snowy neighborhood?
L: 2 slices leftover pizza from Virgilios, 1 stalk of celery, 1 whisky cocktail
D: chix breast, roasted zucchini, tomato sauce, maybe a salad
S: beer, maybe? And probably a cookie? *I just scrolled down to my April 14 post with those pics of that girl's wonderful transformation, and I will skip the cookie today. But not the beer, if DH wants to go get one!!
E: Again, none. Snow day. Trip planning, folding laundry, petting the doggy love... Methinks it would be in my best interest to get some exercise in... ? Walk the doggy in the snowy neighborhood?
Yesterday was 4/16
And it looked like this:
B: egg, broccoli, cheddar
L: 1/2 chix enchilada, 1/2c black beans, romaine salad with tomatoes, cucumber, olive oil and balsamic.
S: 1TBSP peanut butter and a mini babybel light
D: 3 garlic knots, 2 slices of pizza and a glass of red wine, house salad w/ balsamic on side (Virgilio's)
S2: Whiskey cocktail: 2 oz. liquor + 2 awesome Luxardo cherries, and 1TBSP dark chocolate chips
E: none. snowday. read book.
B: egg, broccoli, cheddar
L: 1/2 chix enchilada, 1/2c black beans, romaine salad with tomatoes, cucumber, olive oil and balsamic.
S: 1TBSP peanut butter and a mini babybel light
D: 3 garlic knots, 2 slices of pizza and a glass of red wine, house salad w/ balsamic on side (Virgilio's)
S2: Whiskey cocktail: 2 oz. liquor + 2 awesome Luxardo cherries, and 1TBSP dark chocolate chips
E: none. snowday. read book.
Friday, April 15, 2016
April 15
Was late to WW meeting. Up 3 lbs. Could be the tomato sauce and salt from dinner last night. Also could be that my choices this week were not stellar. I had a busy work week. I want to learn how to make good food choices when things get hard.
B: egg, 1/2 cup Fage 2% Greek yogurt, 1/2 cup blueberries, coffee with 2% milk.
L: salad with a protein (Cheddar's Kale salad?) Yes
S: almonds nope, mini babybel light and some pineapple
D: 1/2 a chicken enchilada, salad, black beans yes
S: let's skip the sugar. Alcohol, I'm sure. DH and I may go for a beer no sugar, but did have a whisky cocktail.
E: 30 minute walk, somewhere in here today. (Also, if I can swing it I will try to leave early today to make it to a yoga class at 4:30PM. Not counting on that... but maybe...) did get to the yoga class!!
Daily Motivation: Be kind to yourself. I really am irritated that I'm up this week and I do feel it's because I didn't make good choices. The extra sugar during the week, an extra glass of wine, tortilla chips, not working out as much - these things all added up to a gain.
B: egg, 1/2 cup Fage 2% Greek yogurt, 1/2 cup blueberries, coffee with 2% milk.
L: salad with a protein (Cheddar's Kale salad?) Yes
S: almonds nope, mini babybel light and some pineapple
D: 1/2 a chicken enchilada, salad, black beans yes
S: let's skip the sugar. Alcohol, I'm sure. DH and I may go for a beer no sugar, but did have a whisky cocktail.
E: 30 minute walk, somewhere in here today. (Also, if I can swing it I will try to leave early today to make it to a yoga class at 4:30PM. Not counting on that... but maybe...) did get to the yoga class!!
Daily Motivation: Be kind to yourself. I really am irritated that I'm up this week and I do feel it's because I didn't make good choices. The extra sugar during the week, an extra glass of wine, tortilla chips, not working out as much - these things all added up to a gain.
Thursday, April 14, 2016
April 14
This morning I went to get a new driver's license and I put 160 as my weight. My goal is to be below that number before my birthday this year, about six months away. Actually not so much to get to the number as to have a transformation similar to the girl in these photos!
Steps for today:
B: egg, 1/2 cup Fage 2% yogurt, 1/2 cup blueberries, coffee with 2% milk
L: salad with a protein. Whole foods? *Anthony's salad and side of 2 meatballs
S: 12 almonds, 1 cup grapes *yes almonds, but no grapes. Add a mini babybel light and the roasted sweet potatoes.
D: one chicken enchilada, steamed broccoli, roasted sweet potatoes *no broccoli, also sweet potatoes were a snack. Add salad with tomatoes, cucumber, onions. Side of 1/2 cup black beans.
S: pineapple, maybe some chocolate chips *yes, and a sip of Sambucca
E: swim *no workout. Did walk the dog 30 minutes.
Daily Motivation: This photo. I have no idea who she is but she was on The Berry's Daily Motivation website today. I am working toward a similar change in appearance for myself over the next 6 months. (Bonus, I already own the "after" hat!!)
Steps for today:
B: egg, 1/2 cup Fage 2% yogurt, 1/2 cup blueberries, coffee with 2% milk
L: salad with a protein. Whole foods? *Anthony's salad and side of 2 meatballs
S: 12 almonds, 1 cup grapes *yes almonds, but no grapes. Add a mini babybel light and the roasted sweet potatoes.
D: one chicken enchilada, steamed broccoli, roasted sweet potatoes *no broccoli, also sweet potatoes were a snack. Add salad with tomatoes, cucumber, onions. Side of 1/2 cup black beans.
S: pineapple, maybe some chocolate chips *yes, and a sip of Sambucca
E: swim *no workout. Did walk the dog 30 minutes.
Daily Motivation: This photo. I have no idea who she is but she was on The Berry's Daily Motivation website today. I am working toward a similar change in appearance for myself over the next 6 months. (Bonus, I already own the "after" hat!!)
Wednesday, April 13, 2016
April 13
Late writing, but had a plan this morning and have stuck to it!
B: oatmeal, 1/2 banana, 1TBSP peanut butter, coffee with 1% milk
L: 1/2 cup of chicken chili, 1/2 avocado with mixed greens
S: 1 cup grapes, mini babybel light
D: spinach and cheese ravioli with tomato sauce, romaine salad with tomato, cucumber, onion, olive oil and balsamic *no tomato sauce. Boo.
S: Not sure why I didn't put in a second snack!! Pineapple, roasted sweet potatoes, and 16g dark chocolate chips.
E: weights workout
Daily motivation: just do it. I'm happy I'm doing it. Not easy every day, but I'm doing it and I'll get there.
B: oatmeal, 1/2 banana, 1TBSP peanut butter, coffee with 1% milk
L: 1/2 cup of chicken chili, 1/2 avocado with mixed greens
S: 1 cup grapes, mini babybel light
D: spinach and cheese ravioli with tomato sauce, romaine salad with tomato, cucumber, onion, olive oil and balsamic *no tomato sauce. Boo.
S: Not sure why I didn't put in a second snack!! Pineapple, roasted sweet potatoes, and 16g dark chocolate chips.
E: weights workout
Daily motivation: just do it. I'm happy I'm doing it. Not easy every day, but I'm doing it and I'll get there.
Tuesday, April 12, 2016
April 12
I didn't start with a plan. It's 4PM and I'm writing now.
B: egg, 1/2 cup Fage Greek yogurt with 1/2 cup blueberries, coffee with half and half
L: 1.5 cups green chile (think it was chicken, not pork), 2 6" flour tortillas, 10 tortilla chips.
S: mini Reese's PB cup, fun-size Krackel bar, 1 square dark chocolate
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What I've learned here is that I must pre-track my day in the morning!! Here is the plan for the rest of the day:
E: Spin class *The beefy guy, not Katie H, and again he gave a good workout.
D: salmon, roasted sweet potatoes, romaine salad with cucumbers, olive oil, balsamic
S: homemade Dr. Bird cake. *and a bite of a peanut butter cookie, and 1/2 brownie. Hm. Sugar begets sugar, or it was all out on the table so I sampled it all? Did I need to do that? Cake, yes, the rest, let's think about that next time...
Daily Motivation: go spin and earn that cake.... that's my daily motivation!!!
B: egg, 1/2 cup Fage Greek yogurt with 1/2 cup blueberries, coffee with half and half
L: 1.5 cups green chile (think it was chicken, not pork), 2 6" flour tortillas, 10 tortilla chips.
S: mini Reese's PB cup, fun-size Krackel bar, 1 square dark chocolate
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What I've learned here is that I must pre-track my day in the morning!! Here is the plan for the rest of the day:
E: Spin class *The beefy guy, not Katie H, and again he gave a good workout.
D: salmon, roasted sweet potatoes, romaine salad with cucumbers, olive oil, balsamic
S: homemade Dr. Bird cake. *and a bite of a peanut butter cookie, and 1/2 brownie. Hm. Sugar begets sugar, or it was all out on the table so I sampled it all? Did I need to do that? Cake, yes, the rest, let's think about that next time...
Daily Motivation: go spin and earn that cake.... that's my daily motivation!!!
Monday, April 11, 2016
April 11 looks like this
B: oatmeal, blueberries, 2TBSP sliced almonds
L: 3 oz. salmon, roasted brussels sprouts, roasted cauliflower
S: grapes, mini babybel light *and some rice crackers, ~5, and some peanut butter pieces
D: salmon, roasted sweet potatoes, romaine salad with cucumbers, avocado, quinoa olive oil and balsamic *nope, went to Pete's Greek hole in the wall. Had 1/2 small greek salad, 2 bites of spanikopita, 1/2 cup moussaka, 3 bites chix noodle soup.
S: pineapple nope, baklava. Delish. neither love nor hate that it went this way.
E: off day today. definitely need to recover from yesterday's crazy ski! *did walk Doggy Love for 30 minutes
Daily motivation: rest is part of the program. Do it well!
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Today did not go as planned. That's OK, for one day.
L: 3 oz. salmon, roasted brussels sprouts, roasted cauliflower
S: grapes, mini babybel light *and some rice crackers, ~5, and some peanut butter pieces
D: salmon, roasted sweet potatoes, romaine salad with cucumbers, avocado, quinoa olive oil and balsamic *nope, went to Pete's Greek hole in the wall. Had 1/2 small greek salad, 2 bites of spanikopita, 1/2 cup moussaka, 3 bites chix noodle soup.
S: pineapple nope, baklava. Delish. neither love nor hate that it went this way.
E: off day today. definitely need to recover from yesterday's crazy ski! *did walk Doggy Love for 30 minutes
Daily motivation: rest is part of the program. Do it well!
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Today did not go as planned. That's OK, for one day.
Sunday, April 10, 2016
April 10 looks like this
B: bagel with veggie cream cheese, coffee with 1% milk *they had MINI bagels - SO GREAT!!!
L: 1 slice pizza, pineapple, celery and bell peppers *add 6 oz. hot chocolate
S: beer or apres-ski cocktail *had a glass of wine with dinner. Also did not bring enough food for the work we did skiing, so apres-ski also included a bean-and-cheese burrito from Taco Bell. INHALED it.
D: salmon, roasted brussels sprouts and cauliflower *add roasted potatoes
S: more wine, 1TBSP chocolate chips
E: ski day. Easy day... since we haven't been skiing! *Ended up being the hardest ski day we've had in a long time! Skied 10AM-3PM, pretty hard the whole time. Stopped for lunch for 30ish minutes. Did not pack enough food, had to supplement...
L: 1 slice pizza, pineapple, celery and bell peppers *add 6 oz. hot chocolate
S: beer or apres-ski cocktail *had a glass of wine with dinner. Also did not bring enough food for the work we did skiing, so apres-ski also included a bean-and-cheese burrito from Taco Bell. INHALED it.
D: salmon, roasted brussels sprouts and cauliflower *add roasted potatoes
S: more wine, 1TBSP chocolate chips
E: ski day. Easy day... since we haven't been skiing! *Ended up being the hardest ski day we've had in a long time! Skied 10AM-3PM, pretty hard the whole time. Stopped for lunch for 30ish minutes. Did not pack enough food, had to supplement...
Saturday, April 9, 2016
April 9 looks like this
B: egg, 1/4 avocado, 1/2 orange, coffee with 1% milk
S: banana, 2TBSP pb
L: romaine salad with peppers, celery, quinoa and 1/4 avocado, maybe 1/2 oz. salami
S: cantaloupe or pears, 1 oz brie *No fruit here. 1 oz asiago instead of brie, salami eaten here, bell peppers, hummus and a mini babybel light cheese
D: no idea, but would love a burger or steak over some greens, some sweet potato fries and a glass of wine. Did a cedar plank salmon and roasted brussels sprouts, cauliflower and potatoes.
S: brownie and grilled pineapple
E: weights, 40 mins full body circuit (Base Workout) did this and rode bike to and from gym. Nice!!
Note: Because it's the weekend, I have no idea what one of my meals - Lunch or Dinner - will be. One of them will definitely be a big salad.
It was hard for me to write today's plan because it's the weekend. But I want to be successful, so planning has to be a part of EACH day.
Daily Motivation: You're doing awesome, so KEEP GOING!!!
S: banana, 2TBSP pb
L: romaine salad with peppers, celery, quinoa and 1/4 avocado, maybe 1/2 oz. salami
S: cantaloupe or pears, 1 oz brie *No fruit here. 1 oz asiago instead of brie, salami eaten here, bell peppers, hummus and a mini babybel light cheese
D: no idea, but would love a burger or steak over some greens, some sweet potato fries and a glass of wine. Did a cedar plank salmon and roasted brussels sprouts, cauliflower and potatoes.
S: brownie and grilled pineapple
E: weights, 40 mins full body circuit (Base Workout) did this and rode bike to and from gym. Nice!!
Note: Because it's the weekend, I have no idea what one of my meals - Lunch or Dinner - will be. One of them will definitely be a big salad.
It was hard for me to write today's plan because it's the weekend. But I want to be successful, so planning has to be a part of EACH day.
Daily Motivation: You're doing awesome, so KEEP GOING!!!
Friday, April 8, 2016
April 8 update
Weight change from last Friday is that I'm down 2 pounds!!! Planning it out really works. 14ish to go....
Here is what Friday, April 8 looks like:
B: egg, Siggi's blueberry yogurt, coffee with 1% milk
S: banana, 6 almonds, tea with half-and-half had peanuts instead of almonds, opening day!
L: roasted chicken, roasted carrots and potatoes, romaine salad with tomatoes, 1/4 avocado, olive oil and balsamic vinegar
S: 1 medium orange, 6 almonds also had a mini babybel, a tsp of peanut butter, a half a bell pepper and 2TBSP hummus
D: Pho (DH request if we go to Costco) or pizza (me request!). Glass of wine. Veggies if I can. Maybe dinner at Pho place for me is spring rolls? had 2 slices cheese pizza and a romaine salad with peppers, celery, quinoa, olive oil and balsamic vinegar
S: Dark chocolate and another glass of wine. yep! and had some white chocolate chips, too, maybe a 1/2 Tbsp
E: lunchtime ride! rode for an hour with Gregg
Daily motivation: Keep up the great work and enjoy the ride!
Here is what Friday, April 8 looks like:
B: egg, Siggi's blueberry yogurt, coffee with 1% milk
S: banana, 6 almonds, tea with half-and-half had peanuts instead of almonds, opening day!
L: roasted chicken, roasted carrots and potatoes, romaine salad with tomatoes, 1/4 avocado, olive oil and balsamic vinegar
S: 1 medium orange, 6 almonds also had a mini babybel, a tsp of peanut butter, a half a bell pepper and 2TBSP hummus
D: Pho (DH request if we go to Costco) or pizza (me request!). Glass of wine. Veggies if I can. Maybe dinner at Pho place for me is spring rolls? had 2 slices cheese pizza and a romaine salad with peppers, celery, quinoa, olive oil and balsamic vinegar
S: Dark chocolate and another glass of wine. yep! and had some white chocolate chips, too, maybe a 1/2 Tbsp
E: lunchtime ride! rode for an hour with Gregg
Daily motivation: Keep up the great work and enjoy the ride!
Thursday, April 7, 2016
Focus
I originally posted this on my blog on the Weight Watchers site on March 22.
focus
Tuesday, March 22, 2016
Last night I went to a kickoff meeting for my triathlon club. For the first time they brought in a keynote speaker, Brad Cooper, the founder of US Corporate Wellness. Presenting is his job and he's very good at it. All his topics were relevant to pushing yourself to be a little better every day, which can be applied to any area of your life. But one thing he said really stood out for me - that focusing on just one thing when you are feeling like "you're done" will get you through all the rest, and you will probably come out better than you expected.
He used an example of a long bike ride he went on with his teenage daughter, and they got lost. They were out of food and water and really far from where they started. His daughter was exhausted and upset, and suddenly his focus went from "This is a bad situation. I'm running out of energy and have no food to help... How did we get here and what are we going to do to get out of this mess?" to "How do I help Danielle? Danielle... Danielle... I have to keep riding really fast and get to the car so I can help Danielle." Focusing on just one thing, Danielle, took care of all the rest. He didn't worry about water, about his energy level, about how far he had to ride. He said that our brains use a lot of energy, and by drowning out all the other noise and fixating on one important thing, you'll find your way through.
There are so many components to weight loss. Sure it's eat less and move more, but it's also curbing cravings, measuring food, planning exercise and actually DOING it, navigating parties, dealing with business dinners or food-pushing friends and relatives, getting your water and your fruits and veggies in, setting up healthy spaces, finding the time for your family... It really is a lot! Regarding my own weight loss, lately I've been standing in what I call The Field, and I've been trying to manage the entire field, but after that talk last night I realize that perhaps I need to focus on just one aspect. Pick the flowers, or the water, or the mountain, whatever - don't manage the whole thing, but FOCUS on the one thing you need to be successful.
That one thing is my nutrition. On some level I am pretty well dialed in to this. I have built habits that are good enough to keep me at my same weight, if I can't think too much about what I'm eating. But I have made "can't think about it" a habit itself, and that's an integral part (maybe the integral part, for me) of managing The Field. I have not been tracking. I have not been planning. I have been drinking alcohol more often. Yes I've been able to maintain my weight loss, but I'm not at my goal and if I want to get there, good nutrition is the thing I need to focus on and let everything else in The Field fade away for a bit. Healthy food... pick healthy food... eat healthy food... plan for healthy food... healthiest food on the menu.... buy healthy food... healthy food healthy food HEALTHY FOOD.
Like I said my eating habits are pretty good. I know what healthy food is - lean proteins, eggs, veggies, fruit, nuts, yogurt. I generally choose those foods and I really enjoy eating them. I also know that red wine and dark chocolate can be part of this nutrition plan I make for myself, as long as I enjoy them in moderation. It is so obvious that the thing I need to focus on is HEALTHY FOOD and nothing else... the workouts will fall in, or if they don't, fine, I'm focused on the food, the social situations will not need to be "managed" because I'm already focused on the HEALTHY FOOD. I can give my mind a rest by honing in on the one thing in my Field that is really important. I already have a plan for this ('nother blog). I'm really glad I went to the meeting, and that they had this guy speak.
In other funny coincidences, my WW leader was AT this meeting last night. Apparently she's a new member, just joined the club. Crazy! She has a million WW members so I'm not surprised she didn't recognize me. It's odd for all when worlds collide.
April 7 looks like this
B: egg, 1/2 navel orange, a kiwi, 1 oz. brie, coffee with 1% milk
L: 3 oz. roasted chicken, 1.5 cups roasted carrots and potatoes, 1 roma tomato, 1/4 avocado
S: dark chocolate square, coffee with half and half
S2: apple, 2 TBSP (32g) peanut butter and a mini babybel light after swimming
D: 3 oz. roasted chicken, 1.5 cups roasted carrots and potatoes, romaine salad with tomato, carrots, celery, olive oil and balsamic
S: maybe some gelato if I swim (planning to swim 45 minutes tonight - easy to moderate to get back in it) Yes on both the gelato and the swim. Gelato was 2/3 of a serving, I added some dark chocolate chips.
Daily motivation: focus on the food - loving all the fruits and veggies I'm eating lately!
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This day went almost exactly as it was written.
L: 3 oz. roasted chicken, 1.5 cups roasted carrots and potatoes, 1 roma tomato, 1/4 avocado
S: dark chocolate square, coffee with half and half
S2: apple, 2 TBSP (32g) peanut butter and a mini babybel light after swimming
D: 3 oz. roasted chicken, 1.5 cups roasted carrots and potatoes, romaine salad with tomato, carrots, celery, olive oil and balsamic
S: maybe some gelato if I swim (planning to swim 45 minutes tonight - easy to moderate to get back in it) Yes on both the gelato and the swim. Gelato was 2/3 of a serving, I added some dark chocolate chips.
Daily motivation: focus on the food - loving all the fruits and veggies I'm eating lately!
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This day went almost exactly as it was written.
Wednesday, April 6, 2016
April 6 looks like this
B: egg, kiwi, 1 oz. brie, coffee with 1% milk
S: orange, 12 almonds, coffee with half-and-half
L: spaghetti squash, tomato sauce, 1/2 cup quinoa, 1/2 an avocado
S: dark chocolate square, 6 almonds, coffee with half-and-half
D: crock pot chicken, crock pot veggies (carrots and potatoes), romaine salad with tomatoes, carrots, onion, olive oil and balsamic vinegar
S: added air-popped popcorn, 2 mini Babybel light cheeses, a cup of grapes and a plum
E: 30 min walk at lunch, 30 min walk with the dog.
Will probably have chocolate chips again tonight. Might bake a Dr. Bird loaf, one for us, one for new neighbors, tonight... Did have a Lindt dark chocolate truffle and 2Tbsp chocolate chips. Then I looked and ONE tbsp choc. chips is 80 calories!!
Daily Motivation: I'm aiming to be more lean before the end of April.
S: orange, 12 almonds, coffee with half-and-half
L: spaghetti squash, tomato sauce, 1/2 cup quinoa, 1/2 an avocado
S: dark chocolate square, 6 almonds, coffee with half-and-half
D: crock pot chicken, crock pot veggies (carrots and potatoes), romaine salad with tomatoes, carrots, onion, olive oil and balsamic vinegar
S: added air-popped popcorn, 2 mini Babybel light cheeses, a cup of grapes and a plum
E: 30 min walk at lunch, 30 min walk with the dog.
Will probably have chocolate chips again tonight. Might bake a Dr. Bird loaf, one for us, one for new neighbors, tonight... Did have a Lindt dark chocolate truffle and 2Tbsp chocolate chips. Then I looked and ONE tbsp choc. chips is 80 calories!!
Daily Motivation: I'm aiming to be more lean before the end of April.
Tuesday, April 5, 2016
April 5 looks like this
Oatmeal with PB and 1/2 tsp honey for breakfast
An orange and coffee with half-and-half for a snack
Spaghetti squash and 1/2 cup quinoa with tomato sauce, plus 1 cup roasted broccoli for lunch
A plum and 12 almonds for a snack
A one-hour spin class (hard)
Cheese ravioli (one serving) with tomato sauce and spaghetti squash, possibly a salad for dinner
Probably some dark chocolate chips after dinner. I'll measure them out and update.
Probably walking the dober love for a mile tonight.
Daily Motivation: I am worth the hard work!!
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How it went: as above. and add 1 oz. brie and 5 olives before dinner, then 1TBSP peanut butter with 1TBSP white chocolate chips, 2TBSP dark chocolate chips after dinner.
Spin was hard, despite having a different instructor.
An orange and coffee with half-and-half for a snack
Spaghetti squash and 1/2 cup quinoa with tomato sauce, plus 1 cup roasted broccoli for lunch
A plum and 12 almonds for a snack
A one-hour spin class (hard)
Cheese ravioli (one serving) with tomato sauce and spaghetti squash, possibly a salad for dinner
Probably some dark chocolate chips after dinner. I'll measure them out and update.
Probably walking the dober love for a mile tonight.
Daily Motivation: I am worth the hard work!!
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How it went: as above. and add 1 oz. brie and 5 olives before dinner, then 1TBSP peanut butter with 1TBSP white chocolate chips, 2TBSP dark chocolate chips after dinner.
Spin was hard, despite having a different instructor.
same place
Twenty pounds away from my "number". For a while, a long while, I was like 6 pounds away (and really, that was good enough for me) but now I'm at least 10 pounds away from being 6 pounds away from my number, if that makes sense. Essentially I'm 10-15 pounds from being comfortable with, well, everything. Here's what I think of where I am right now:
- My black work pants are tight. I don't even fit into my red pants. I'd rather NOT buy new clothes.
- I look "squishy" in photos and in the mirror; I am definitely not lean.
- My knees hurt, I'm not running.
- Summer is coming and I'm worried about how I'll look in tank tops and shorts.
- Why am I still here? How come I haven't been able to just get it together and lose the weight? I mean, it was well over a year ago I said I'd do it, that it was "show time" and, well, here I am.
In my defense, in 2015 I did get down to within 6 pounds of my number goal and at that point, I was good - like, TRULY good and no need to lose any more weight. But I didn't stay there because it takes a lot of focus and giving up things I don't want to give up to stay there. But I CAN get there. And as long as there are no major life distractions, I can stay there.
So, what needs to change? Clearly, what I'm eating and drinking. I'm going to have to give things up, if I really want this, and figure out a way to incorporate that into life forever. But what does that look like? It looks like sugar once a week, dark chocolate on the other days. It looks like alcohol only on the weekend. It looks like more protein and veggies, and less pretzels. It looks like cooking good, healthy meals for myself (and DH) rather than eating out and guessing the calories.
From experience I know that I get HERE (this point on the scale where I am right now) when things in life get really difficult. I think I'm OK with that. It's not a good spot but it's not terrible and I can manage my feelings and my emotions and my life without getting above this point. 2014 saw a lot of work (and marriage) issues, which briefly got better in 2015 when I changed jobs but by the end of the year work had deteriorated into a really terrible situation, and the scale number climbed in tandem with the level of turmoil in my life. I spent all winter dealing with things.
Now that it's spring, things in life are getting back to normal which makes me feel like I am ready to spend some time and energy to get myself to a being happier about how I look and feel. This week, that energy will focus on healthy eating, bicycling, weights, and swimming. It's a start.
- My black work pants are tight. I don't even fit into my red pants. I'd rather NOT buy new clothes.
- I look "squishy" in photos and in the mirror; I am definitely not lean.
- My knees hurt, I'm not running.
- Summer is coming and I'm worried about how I'll look in tank tops and shorts.
- Why am I still here? How come I haven't been able to just get it together and lose the weight? I mean, it was well over a year ago I said I'd do it, that it was "show time" and, well, here I am.
In my defense, in 2015 I did get down to within 6 pounds of my number goal and at that point, I was good - like, TRULY good and no need to lose any more weight. But I didn't stay there because it takes a lot of focus and giving up things I don't want to give up to stay there. But I CAN get there. And as long as there are no major life distractions, I can stay there.
So, what needs to change? Clearly, what I'm eating and drinking. I'm going to have to give things up, if I really want this, and figure out a way to incorporate that into life forever. But what does that look like? It looks like sugar once a week, dark chocolate on the other days. It looks like alcohol only on the weekend. It looks like more protein and veggies, and less pretzels. It looks like cooking good, healthy meals for myself (and DH) rather than eating out and guessing the calories.
From experience I know that I get HERE (this point on the scale where I am right now) when things in life get really difficult. I think I'm OK with that. It's not a good spot but it's not terrible and I can manage my feelings and my emotions and my life without getting above this point. 2014 saw a lot of work (and marriage) issues, which briefly got better in 2015 when I changed jobs but by the end of the year work had deteriorated into a really terrible situation, and the scale number climbed in tandem with the level of turmoil in my life. I spent all winter dealing with things.
Now that it's spring, things in life are getting back to normal which makes me feel like I am ready to spend some time and energy to get myself to a being happier about how I look and feel. This week, that energy will focus on healthy eating, bicycling, weights, and swimming. It's a start.
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